Wondering....

I'm thinking about you today. Actually, I think about you most days...but especially today. I think about how it would have felt when you moved...or how many times I would've gotten heartburn. I wonder if you would have made me itch like your brother, Canaan...or made me sick like your sister, Genesis. Would my feet had been so swollen I'd cry to get out of bed like I did with Asher? Would you've have had my toes?  I think about the widow's peak you might have gotten from you daddy. I try to imagine if you were a boy or a girl. Would you have been born at home like your sister, Shiloh? I wonder what it'd been like to hold you right after you'd been born. What color eyes would you have you gazed at me with? Would you have come early or late...perhaps even right on time? I have so many questions that I'll never know the answer to in this life.

According to BabyCenter.com, today would've been your due date...and today I'm missing you, which really isn't any different than any other day...but today I want to world to miss you with me. I ♥ you sweet baby. See you soon.

~Mommy